Be Patient Bringing Sexy Back

I am not a very patient person....More of a get it done and get it done now type......I rushed my sexy back and learned a valuable lesson.....

This is the story of how Rushing Sexy Bit Me In The A$$! 

(Back in April)

I came to work today in my new pants!  Love them, they are a bit on the snug side but not too bad.  I think I am looking all hawt!

Any way, I decided to weigh myself and things are going well, than I noticed a little rock in my shoe....So I decided to bend over to get rid of it.  On my way down....mid bend.....I hear a rip noise...

I split my freaking pants-----at work!!!  lol and to make it worse I have on the ugliest oldest pink frayed bloomers I own. not pretty! 

So I had to squeeze together my butt cheeks so my pink bloomers wouldn't show and waddle out of my office down the stairs to the truck where I passed several people I work with!!  Not as easy as it looks....Trying to rush the office conversations to get to my truck with out anyone noticing my pretty Bloomers! I  jumped in my truck and went to my moms house to grab a new pair of pants.

So long story short I have a pair of my moms dress pants on (which are too short) and learned a lesson……wait for sexy to come back…..don’t rush it!! lol Or the moral of the story could be to go get some new underwear! Hahaha

I think this is Karma for eating a chocolate bar yesterday!!!  And I will go get some new "pretty" bloomers just incase!
 

Crossing Off My List...

Well, Try a new exercise class has been done..... Although I will try many many more.

This class was Aqua Zumba~!  Knowing how awful it is to sausage my self into my bathing suit, I decided to give it a try anyway. 

Lets just say that when stuff is done in water.....it just moves slower!  I felt every ripple of blubber jiggling around.  I didn't know that stuff could move like that!  Gosh I hope they don't have underwater cameras.....Ugh what a pretty site that would be.

Anyway, turns out that my bikini that I had when I was pregnant turns out to be a little on the big side.  Thank freakin' goodness.....someone would have been shot otherwise. lol  Seems as though the "Girls" are not as big as they once were....this made for lots of giggles and hopes that no one seen the peep show.  I did have a tank top over in hopes of hiding some of the jiggly bits, turns out it didn't work.  The force of the waves in the water not only wedged the bottoms upwards....but also the tank top too.....My attempts to "hide" things really only brought more attention to them.

Ok, right, this is supposed to be about the exercise class....Well it was Zumba.....under water.....
Exactly what it said it was.  But I loved it.  No one could see my two left feet and my old bones didn't hurt.

The shakin of the booty was much better under water where no one could see the other stuff shake along with it.   I burned some calories for sure, if anything it was from all the laughing I did.

I tried very carefully not to get any water on my face, I failed to put on waterproof mascara.....But with the many giggles came giant splashes of water.....I some how managed to get myself ...and get myself good!  Not sure how I created those big waves that slapped me right in my face.....ok who am I kidding I know exactly how I made those big waves!......But at least I didn't make any big bubbles.....  :s

I will be going back, this is a fantastic class.  Especially when I will be recovering from surgery.  It will be a great way to get me back on my feet.

I promise the next new class will be better! :)

5k PEI Marathon....

UPDATE: I just registered for the 5 Km PEI Matathon RUN!!!! I only have a short time to get ready and "train"! I have unbelievable support and encouragement for this! After a speedy recovery, I am putting on my game face and DOING THIS!!!! WoooHoooo!!!


I have been thinking a lot lately about this 5 k run I plan to do......

Looks as if the deadline may be October 15, 2011 in the PEI Marathon.  I have received so much support and encouragement that I really want to conquer this one!   I am just not sure if I will have enough time to recover from surgery and start training. 

Yes, I do know that is is only a little more than 3 miles and should only be about 30 minutes of running....or moderately jogging....But I want to succeed and I am a follow through kind of girl, I just want to allow myself time to prepare, my body and my mind!

I guess it really depends on what the outcome of surgery is, and how long it takes me to recover.  But this is something I am really considering.  This would be a huge accomplishment~ and you never know.....maybe before I am 30 I will be able to add a 10 k run to my list of accomplishments.

I can feel the love, support and encouragement from so many people through my new journey,  I know I can do this, but I don't think I can do it without all of you!  I feel pretty proud to know so many wonderful people who are willing to help me reach my goals and are always encouraging me to succeed.

My fingers are crossed for a speedy recovery and even if I have to to the 5k or 10 k run in October of 2012,  I can be satisfied with that.  My health is just as important and I need to take care of this and allow my impatient self to heal properly!

Let's Get Started

Well, the beginning of the blog is not so interesting, nothing inspiring, nothing fantastic.  That was the beginning of seeing the "Light".

Exercise classes and a new Healthy Life Style have encouraged me to get my life back on track.  There is no longer a fear of the unknown only a journey of experience and memories.  No looking back.

I am on the road to a New Positive Life!  One which will be full of encouragement and life.  One that will have the Real Autumn in it.

Before I begin my journey of my 30 before 30 list, I will explain a bit of how I decided to venture on this new path.

As in a previous blog if you read it you would know that I was diagnosed with a thyroid tumor when I was pregnant.  Well long story short and many tests and pokes (not the good kind either haha)  The doctor still cant tell me that it is not cancer.....

With this being said, there was a biopsy which showed negative for malignancy, but further tests still show cancerous characteristics.  I seen the doctor on Monday June 13, 2011 and that is when he said I can't tell you it is not cancer.....and gave me 2 options.  More continuous blood work, ultrasounds, nuc. med scans and biopsies to "watch" it or have surgery to remove it.

Um, Hello.....Surgery it is.  A. It is a tumor growing in my neck. and B. if I can live with out it take it.
Obviously I oped for surgery.

The doctor explained the procedure.  I will have an incision across the front of my neck and he will remove the left side of my thyroid with the tumor on it, at that time the lab will come and do a quick test during surgery.  Negative for cancer they close up and I go to recovery, if it is cancer they go forth and do a total thyroidectomy (remove the whole thing).  But I am pretty sure the trend of Negative will continue.  Positive Thoughts for Negative Results!! Maybe the only situation where that statement will make sense.

Well, I fully understand everything that will take place and I am completely comfortable with either outcome!  Positive thoughts only!

On June 22, 2011 I will be admitted to the QEH where I will under go this surgery......That was what got me thinking....I have only one life and am exiting my twenties.....I must do it in style...

Hence, the 30 before 30 list.  I plan on having a lot of fun with this and will look forward to looking back on this when I am older. Hopefully this will encourage  you to do the same, as well as I hope to set an expample for my little ones and hopefully encourage them to set goals and achieve them, as well as, help others to do the same.

I hope you will join me in my journey of 30 before 30 and I encourage you to have fun and live your life too!

30 Before I am 30

30 Things to do before I am 30

1.      Pin-up Model Photoshoot  (Rachel Peters)

2.      Mechanical Bull Ride

3.      Take my parents out to dinner  

4.      Eat "Clean" for a day (no processed foods)

5.      First Tattoo (maybe)

6.      Take a cooking class

7.      Go one full day without technology

8.      Complete a 5k walk/run/jog

9.      Take a new class at the gym

10.  Take a trip Down South

11.  Visit a Strip Club with my Besties

12.  Play Poker

13.  Buy an expensive bottle of wine

14.  Surprise someone

15.  Have a pajama girls night with my little ones at a hotel!!

16.  Write a letter to my future self

17.   Bake a cake for someone special

18.  Encourage others to set and succeed at reaching their goals

19.  Drop 20 lbs

20.  Go one full day with no coffee!

21.  Go Fishing (eeeewwww)

22.  Do a cleanse

23.  Call my sister more

24.  Write a blog about my 30 before 30 journey

25.  Milk a cow with Angela Flood

26.  Start an emergency fund

27.  Get a massage

28.  Waxing!! Eeekkk Ouch!

29.  Learn something new

30.  Visit a museum

This is my 30 before 30 list and I will promise to write about each one as I succeed in accomplishing all of theses.  I will be 30 on September 13, 2012.  I have a little over a year to accomplish these milestones and I am going to have fun doing it!  I will encourage others to succeed in their journey (# 18) and I will gratefully accept any support that I am given through this fun little journey! 

Big Fat Belly

My belly was forever growing and growing......making it very hard to get around.  It is now summer time and I am still expanding!!  My feet, ugh, I had the biggest Shrek feet.  No joke, men's sandals were about the only ones that would fit my feet!  And even they left indents on my very fat feet.  Ankles, what ankles?  I had tree stump legs, Big from the top to the bottom!!


I worked in x ray (thank goodness for air conditioning) and one of my fantastic co-workers generously gave me some (by some I mean a huge bag) of baby girl clothes! (I already knew it was a girl)  Bernadette was so kind to give me the clothes, she even delivered them right to my house.....But to her surprise, it was on a hot hot hot day in July, and I was sporting a bikini in a small pool! Not a pretty picture. I was about 8 1/2 months pregnant and HUGE!!!  I think the poor girl still has nightmares! But none the less I was very grateful to have people like her in my life.


Being me and having my stubborn hormones running wild, I decided to attempt camping.  Yes, very pregnant camping!!  Kailyn had never been, and her 4th birthday was coming up in July, so what do I do, but book us 2 nights at Marco Polo Land.  Big Fat 8 months me set up the tent (which was huge. A 12 person tent) and began to make some memories.  I just hope that she only remembers the "fun" stuff! 


I failed to bring a BBQ, mine is too big to haul out there for 2 nights, so I brought an electric frying pan....with no extension cord.....so we were camping and had no food...  Needless to say we ate out that night.  My mom came to visit the next day and decided you couldn't camp with out BBQ food.  So we got some of the cheap disposable grills.  the ones that only hold 2 hamburgers and take over 30 mins to cook them, but we had some yummy burgers, no matter how long they took.


I had an offer to use a co-workers air mattress for the weekend and gratefully accepted the offer.  I thought I would have a great sleep, Just me and Kailyn and the peaceful sound of nature! NOT.  Turns out there was a small leak in the mattress, and it decided to rain, and it was freaking freezing.  So Night 1 turned out to be a bust, night 2 however was not too bad at all.  I won't get into all the rest of the funny, not so great details.  We made a memory and that is all that mattered to me! There are even a few pictures too! Mommy was pretty tired after that excursion! I did value the time we had together.


I will back track just a bit here.  With my growing belly everything else was growing too....Including my neck? I just thought this was normal, if the rest of me was getting fat, why not my neck too.  It wasn't until blood work suggested my thyroid was all wacky.  Turns out I had a 4.8 centimeter tumor growing.  It wasn't fat after all. 


Thank goodness I worked with some fantastic doctors in the x ray department.  One of the finest doctors to ever grace QEH performed a fine needle aspiration of the lovely growth on my thyroid.  He even came to visit me when the results were in to be sure to ease my mind.  The results came back "negative for malignancy".  Music to my ears.  I was terrified I had cancer and not to mention all the crazy hormones that are running wild with the pregnancy.  I think I just about drove my self insane!!  But I was fine!  Being diagnosed with the thyroid tumor explained a lot of what was going on with me in the past.  Constantly tired, poor memory, weight gain, mild depression.  Things started to be explained! 


Blood work every 2 weeks started from that point.  I felt like a pin cushion.  I did however have some fabulous nurses draw my blood!  Than after the baby was born it was blood work every month to monitor.  Now it is every 2-3 months for monitoring.


This is pretty much to where I am today. 


The light went off and I realized I had become someone I didn't know or want to be.  That is when I decided to get my life back and make this one life that I have an important priority and build some memories.  Healthy lifestyle here I come.

The rough patch

Well as I said the juicy stuff was next.  I defeated smoking.  I no longer smoke and I am now fat! But what ever I am feeling better than ever. 



I will just jump right into it...



October was an excellent month, we bought our first home.  A small very enjoyable cottage on Glenfinnan Lake.  Beautiful, peaceful, and ours.  Things were going great, renos were taking place and we were making it our own.



A little bump in the road........I was expecting again!  Our 2nd child.  Talk about getting thrown a curve ball.  We had both agreed not to have any more children. Oops! 



I will keep this short and brief.  Things got rough......and before I knew it I was a single-pregnant mom who was living at home with her parents.  Not a good situation.  Hormonal - enraged - pregnant lady.  Watch out!



There was no way I was letting that situation bring me down.  I wanted and needed my own house, and I wasn't taking no for an answer.  There was no way I was going to pay more in rent than what a mortgage would cost.  I needed to invest in my future and my children's future.



I put my game face on and there was not one thing that could stop me.  I found myself faced with a lot of negative comments. "You will never be able to do this", "Don't even think about it". You are making a huge mistake".  That was just fuel for my fire.  I just couldn't stand it anymore and I was determined to prove them wrong and show the world that I could do it and I was going to do it, all by my self.  I flipped the bird to the world and said just wait.



Well house hunting......not as easy as it looks.  It is a mean competitive world.  I found the perfect house, bank said yes, I had the down payment. (Living at home allows you to save a bit.) I was super pumped only to have some one burst my bubble!!  I didn't get it, my offer wasn't accepted.  Some A-hole bit 10,000 over the asking price.....Who the frigg does that!  Ugh..... the hunt continues.  It is really hard to be a single-pregnant mom working full time and house hunting.  It felt like I looked at 100 houses and couldn't find one that would suit.



Well once you are beat down, there is only one thing left to do, and that is fight back.  I knew I had to be aggressive and act fast, that is when the perfect little house popped on the market.  The first day there was 6 showings or more, I was lucky enough to be one of the first few and I put in my offer.  Being PEI I was able to find out that she wanted the house sold ASAP, Perfect!  I made my offer and told her I could close in 2 weeks.......Hoping that the Lawyer could do it! lol



My phone rings.....it is the real estate agent.....My heart is pounding....... anxiety sets in.  He takes a deep breath and said, "are you ready?"  Long pause and ummmm ya?  Counter offer,  WTF I offered them only 2 grand off of the asking price and I was able to close right away.  Deep breath....okay?  They wanted 1000 more and it would be a done deal.  I agreed and did a little dance and a freak out.  I just bought a freaking house!!  My own house! My future!!



Papers were signed, lawyer was fantastic and closed just in the nick of time!! and I had my own freaking house!!  Did you hear that all you "Your making a mistakes" "You will never be able to do its"  I am doing it!! And no thanks to anyone I am doing it all on my own!!!



But......a pregnant woman can't move herself, or paint, or cut the grass, or any other maintenance that needed to be done.....But I was lucky to have help after! My mom and dad came every Saturday and cut my grass!! Big thanks!!  I painted a bit but had help in that department as well and I was grateful for every second of it. 



Wow so much for being short with this.  I guess long story short....this is just one bump in my story that turned out alright!



I am now a home owner and I take pride and satisfaction that my determination helped me succeed!



I guess the next part is the pregnancy.  But that will be another day!