My belly was forever growing and growing......making it very hard to get around. It is now summer time and I am still expanding!! My feet, ugh, I had the biggest Shrek feet. No joke, men's sandals were about the only ones that would fit my feet! And even they left indents on my very fat feet. Ankles, what ankles? I had tree stump legs, Big from the top to the bottom!!
I worked in x ray (thank goodness for air conditioning) and one of my fantastic co-workers generously gave me some (by some I mean a huge bag) of baby girl clothes! (I already knew it was a girl) Bernadette was so kind to give me the clothes, she even delivered them right to my house.....But to her surprise, it was on a hot hot hot day in July, and I was sporting a bikini in a small pool! Not a pretty picture. I was about 8 1/2 months pregnant and HUGE!!! I think the poor girl still has nightmares! But none the less I was very grateful to have people like her in my life.
Being me and having my stubborn hormones running wild, I decided to attempt camping. Yes, very pregnant camping!! Kailyn had never been, and her 4th birthday was coming up in July, so what do I do, but book us 2 nights at Marco Polo Land. Big Fat 8 months me set up the tent (which was huge. A 12 person tent) and began to make some memories. I just hope that she only remembers the "fun" stuff!
I failed to bring a BBQ, mine is too big to haul out there for 2 nights, so I brought an electric frying pan....with no extension cord.....so we were camping and had no food... Needless to say we ate out that night. My mom came to visit the next day and decided you couldn't camp with out BBQ food. So we got some of the cheap disposable grills. the ones that only hold 2 hamburgers and take over 30 mins to cook them, but we had some yummy burgers, no matter how long they took.
I had an offer to use a co-workers air mattress for the weekend and gratefully accepted the offer. I thought I would have a great sleep, Just me and Kailyn and the peaceful sound of nature! NOT. Turns out there was a small leak in the mattress, and it decided to rain, and it was freaking freezing. So Night 1 turned out to be a bust, night 2 however was not too bad at all. I won't get into all the rest of the funny, not so great details. We made a memory and that is all that mattered to me! There are even a few pictures too! Mommy was pretty tired after that excursion! I did value the time we had together.
I will back track just a bit here. With my growing belly everything else was growing too....Including my neck? I just thought this was normal, if the rest of me was getting fat, why not my neck too. It wasn't until blood work suggested my thyroid was all wacky. Turns out I had a 4.8 centimeter tumor growing. It wasn't fat after all.
Thank goodness I worked with some fantastic doctors in the x ray department. One of the finest doctors to ever grace QEH performed a fine needle aspiration of the lovely growth on my thyroid. He even came to visit me when the results were in to be sure to ease my mind. The results came back "negative for malignancy". Music to my ears. I was terrified I had cancer and not to mention all the crazy hormones that are running wild with the pregnancy. I think I just about drove my self insane!! But I was fine! Being diagnosed with the thyroid tumor explained a lot of what was going on with me in the past. Constantly tired, poor memory, weight gain, mild depression. Things started to be explained!
Blood work every 2 weeks started from that point. I felt like a pin cushion. I did however have some fabulous nurses draw my blood! Than after the baby was born it was blood work every month to monitor. Now it is every 2-3 months for monitoring.
This is pretty much to where I am today.
The light went off and I realized I had become someone I didn't know or want to be. That is when I decided to get my life back and make this one life that I have an important priority and build some memories. Healthy lifestyle here I come.
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